Soooooooo, I quit my job! For a person who is as hard working, and has maintained a steady job since she was 17, and has been known a little bit as a workaholic ( for real, not trying to reference the show. But I do Love the fuck out of that show.) To come to her limit and walk out. That is kinda a big deal. So that was last Friday that, that happened. Officially a week. However, since that has happened, I have moved out of a house I hated living in, moved everything I own into storage. That was already planned before I had quit, but it all just came together at the perfect timing. I have pretty much bleached my boyfriends house, caught up on my personal writing, cooked many many meals, baked many tasty things, trimmed a pretty good amount of weed, and have had more consistent “me” time ( just me time, all by myself) than I have had in close to 6 years, and that is seriously no exaggeration.
This is what I needed. I knew it, but didn’t have the guts to just say, fuck it, I’m doing something for myself. When a person has grown up all their lives to never really have the ability, or the encouragement to only worry about themselves and their personal mental health.Rather, Instead given the task of making sure everything and everyone around them is okay and taken care of, it can pretty difficult to indicate and maintain enough private time, where peace and serenity can let your mind unfold, and allow you too really process everything you have just endured and experienced. And not just one or two things, but almost a lustrum of events, experiences, gains, losses, changes, and evolution within ones self. You were so busy racing around, you never allowed yourself the time to process it all and store for later times when your skin is wrinkly and your hair grey.
I am thankful for this time that I have, and have taken full advantage over it in this last week, while still being productive. Cause lets face it, I’m too A.D.D. and have to much energy to just sit. That has never been the person I am. Plus I hate T.V. So that’s out. One of my favorite things ( besides being able to be there and take care of my boyfriend when he comes home, while he is having a hell of a time at work) is having my ” morning coffee’s ( yes plural coffee) and bagel and watching Bobby’s World. I loved and still love this show so much. The kid’s imagination has always been something I’ve been able to connect with, and still giggle about even as a 27 year old adult. Besides writing and cartoons, my other passion is music. So the other day after en episode I decided to youtube and find the best remix of the Bobby’s World theme. This is my favorite one that I found. It really all connects together.
Currently loving life. Doing some real decompressing. Ready to go find another job. Something different, something new, It is time to expand my professional skills.
In this life we need the balance. The noticable balance on what life is and when your dead. Know to shine with love to brighten the universe and to give love to those who need it most, and those who don’t need it at all!
Just got to work, and I feeling like my energy is winding already. Coffee… Oh my dear lover on the side. But ots okay, cause I know you have your own love affair with him. I think its wonderful. You def helped start off our bond to begin with.
But dear coffee……. I want you in me…….
NOW. Make my blood rush, speed up my heart. I want u.